I’ve been keeping busy these last couple of months focusing a little on the self so to speak and practicing to look good feel good. I gained 30 pounds hitting a good 159 pounds this month. It’s nice to break record highs for weight but my worst fear of losing my shape is getting to me and.. I worry I am going to reach a point where I don’t have that weight under control. The teasing of downgrading from a flat chest six-pack to a one pack belly is a slight self conscious insecurity that I fear of at the moment.

I apologize for the lack of attention on this blog the last few weeks trying to get myself focused and into gear after some unfortunate losses and events. I’ve been stabilizing myself with healthy activity through swimming daily at the leisure center and a lot of painting. I have 4 copies of each electronic painting of my own ready to be sold. I’ve been focusing my sights on karate class and training at home rigorously with some basic home training. 50 push-ups, 24 pull-ups, 50 sit-ups and 100 touch side to side. I hope I don’t entirely sound vain appearance wise – I just want to set and hit goals to feel good simply put. They say exercise is a great way to look good and feel good. It also helps your mind become more healthy, purging unwanted weight through sweat and detoxifying.

I’ve been doing these exercises for 3 months now and it’s been good. I would love to try to get into the Olympics now that karate is a legit Olympic sport. I hope to eventually follow up with my dreams of eventually get that driving, marriage, getting that good job and that white picket fence, dog and surf all day. My most important focus at the moment is my transitioning into a healthier life style.

Hope your day is a good one,

Nam