This is the eighteenth of the Nostalgic 90s fanart piece for my 2021 Nostalgic Fanart Gallery. An original Neo from The Matrix Franchise.
This is the Fifty-seventh pokemon piece for my 2021 Pokemon Fan Art Gallery. The misplaced Magikarp and koi fish concept inspired by cau 8’s koi fish farm. I did this on Adobe Photoshop.
This is the Fourty-sixth pokemon piece for my 2021 Pokemon Fan Art Gallery. My sister’s Family Collage Pokemon Fanart Collage. I did this on Adobe Photoshop.
This is the Fourty-fifth pokemon piece for my 2021 Pokemon Fan Art Gallery. My own Family Collage Pokemon Fanart Collage. I did this on Adobe Photoshop.
In celebration of Mothers Day. I had a special request to paint my Grandma! So I spent all of yesterday painting up a storm. I thought it would have taken a week at least but i did it in one day! Here is the beautiful diep Granny!
Special Edition set number 2! Super pets. This one is for my uncle Vu’s family. Their two lovely angels. LiMo; Cali and Cosmos. Cali is Moon inspired and Cosmos is Stars inspired. These two are dreaming up the universe. Please Enjoy!
I wanted to reimagine my dogs this time. Lily (Cindy’s dog), Leo (Mel’s dog) and Snowy ( My dog). Cindy wanted a fire themed Dog, Leo became psychic ghost type, and my dog became a majestic cloud dog. Please enjoy and share it if you want. 2021 Mai Family Doggies.
I would like to explore and touch on the world of; Fatalism, Determinism, Super-naturalism and Naturalism. Firstly I want to ramble/pray on my late meditations and breath in new energy for the month:
Sometimes the best something is nothing.
Having the best bad idea is a good idea.
Altruism is virtuous. Love humor and music as opposed to robots; Instead of logic, fear and anger.
Rule life by love and compassion.
Finding that peace of mind and become my own person. Find my individual happiness. No noise and no gimmick of consensus when being my own person. I am in my happy place allowed to live a normal and humble life. Blessed by limitations of being human.
Extensions of life; School, Choir and The Church.
Schools educate and illuminate , Choirs pray and heal The Church preach and practice.
Spoiler alert ahead about God; some straw-man theories
that may hurt strong believers, be aware:
Straw-man falsities attacking the unexplained existence of a living loving God of creation. God plays favorites. Last time God helped a woman she got pregnant. God hates gays, God only likes straight people. Forces artificial taxes through tithing. God is a jealous god. There is only one righteous good God. God lets children starve in Africa but prefers helping first world white christian people get more money and live more comfortable lives. God shames first world living people and ignores very real problems and instabilities such as mental illness stigmas, mental illnesses, obesity, disease, addictions homelessness, sexuality and famine.
In the acceptance of the natural world and meditations on a more compassionate but chaotic world;
On the subject of Fatalism, Determinism, Super-naturalism and Naturalism;
Fatalism tells that we are hopeless and cannot do anything against the imminent mechanism of destiny and fate. We also know this as defeatism.
Determinism is the cause and effect we usually hear of alternative to free will. They believe a force can be pressured and suppressed. Determinism is the philosophical belief that all events are determined completely by previously existing causes. Sometimes things are inherited and make a persons world and life easier. But this does not mean they are imminently victorious in life, it just means others will find there are new hurdles to be passed or assisted based on objective of the rivals. It is a domino affect, a naturally erected pyramid scheme in the natural world.
Super-naturalism speaks of all strange and mysterious things that cannot be explained by logic and rational thinking of science.
Naturalism speaks of the logic and natural world of science. The belief that we are not responsible or should not rely on the premise of a moral natural world. That things exist because of trivial reasons.
We just need to traverse and show kindness and compassion to all things life because they are the way they are and we just need to accept the way they are. Understanding the natural world, observing and implementing the serenity prayers.
“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can
and wisdom to know the difference.”
Fatalism is neither the logical extension of determinism nor the only alternative to free will. Life must persevere despite all odds against them. And determinism does not automatically mean to accept fate in defeatism. Be strong, be smart and speak/think/act through the heart.
Continuation of.. Gene Keys Notes Part 1 (keys 1-20)
31st Gene Key
Siddhi Humility, Gift Leadership and Shadow Arrogance.
32nd Gene Key
Siddhi Veneration, Gift Preservation and Shadow Failure
Grafting a new branch of life.
33rd Gene Key
Siddhi Revelation, Gift Mindfulness and Shadow Forgetting.
Through mindfulness is where you discover how to purify your nature and no longer create negative karma.
You have found the secret of all human desire – once purified into natural state of Divine longing, it becomes the very fuel that returns you to your true centre of being.
Siddhi fruit, gift flower and seed is shadow.
34th Gene Key
Siddhi Majesty, Gift Strength and Shadow Force.
Tireless energy and strength deep inside.
Heart of gold, head of a bull.
The ability to act in harmony with natural forces is the true definition of strength.
Become effortless flow of fluid activity and fluid efficiency. Like unto the properties of water.
All heroes are often never found to act on purpose but actually accidental and unintentionally based on their commitment to doing the right thing.
“Display” plays an important part and assists but not to be confused with the siddhi of valor (21).
Valor is aware of itself and seeks glorification whereas Display of heroism appears to be unintentional.
True heroism is unaware of itself.
35th Gene Key
Siddhi Boundlessness, Gift Adventure and Shadow Hunger.
Selfless unconditional universal love and pursuit of adventure with absence of fear or failure.
Start of something fresh and new.
36th Gene Key
Siddhi Compassion, Gift Humanity and Shadow Turbulence.
Dark night of the soul
When struggles with sexuality and emotional turbulence is finally embraced openly and honestly something is born.. You graduate as a human being.
37th Gene Key
Siddhi Tenderness, Gift Equality and Shadow Weakness.
37 is number of Christ in the Gematria.
Over processed emotions and fail as a victim due to emotion states and fears.
Nor patriarchy or matriarchy but as a family.
Surrendering to the overwhelming power.
As a mother cradles a child beyond our current view, It is tenderness of a maternal hand.
Tenderness is devoid of tension and sexuality.
No longer tribal structure but will be addressed as a collective mind.
Empowering and support communities simultaneously.
Grace comes to those who need it most (22), Compassion (36) and Truth (63).
40th siddhi of Divine Will’s; softness insurmountable, invincible and inevitable.
My gate is always open. A link to my secret prayers page.
Above is just a fun exploration of 3 dimensional space to keep my mind sharp.
So here’s the story short. I got ill from a psychosis and suffered severely from delusions for a awhile and thus got hospitalized. As soon as I got discharged and got better my brother passed away due to depression.. and more to the story but I’m hushed to keep it low key.
On a lighter note.. we distributed some of his prized belongings. His guitar and PS4 were first to go. I got his cintiq tablet hd 22, some clothes and his lonely room and possessions became mine. I doodled a little today on his monstrous cintiq tablet and decided to honor my brother’s favored Japanese art style Anime and drew some fun characters.
Below are some comic ideas I had in mind that I would like to explore in the future possibly. Alphonse the first, Omegan the end, Ethos the Crosswey, Amberguity of ambiguous virtue.
More to come in the future hopefully.
*edit: added 8 more characters. The Synthesis Core Equator, Terra the Amazon Earth Guardian, Abundance of Heaven’s Grace, Obsidian the Grand Teacher, Lost Worlds the Grand Archivist, The Epiphany Prelude and Spatial Planar Protruding Binary.
The Twelve Theories Proxy Character Maps. Pin point Mapping of Character Sphere of influence. Below are character maps and it’s primordial natures and behaviors.
High expectations, low resolve.
I know I’ve been hard on him all my life and sometimes it was hard to set aside our differences, majority of the time. I believe throughout his life he’s had this conflict of expecting a lot but never settling for less than what he wanted to see happen. His resolve to settle was always less than what he expected to see in life. He was use to being hand fed by a silver spoon, living off the silver lining of life and when things got tough because the stars didn’t align for him he gave up.
We grew up pretty poor growing up and he was a favored child all the years I knew him. I’ll continue to roast him in his passing because that opportunity to do so has passed. He was my young kid brother and he had so much more coming to him. There’s so much frustration and misunderstanding of who we were and what we were in life to each other.
I dreamed he visit once just recently. I was resuscitating him in the dream, and he came to life again. He kissed my forehead and said “Stupid”. A very normal answer based on profound knowledge of who he was. I was tearing up, I wanted to say so much but all I could think of was how selfish he was.. how much of an idiot he was to leave us the way he did. How hard it was for my parents to let him go – no parent should bury their kid.
I always saw him in a heroic light, I sometimes referenced him to the redeemed exiled king of “Lord of The Rings” King Aragorn. I had bought him a Aragorn replica sword for his room in 2010 (?) with all the money I had made working banquets for The Shaw Conference Center. He in exchange never bought anyone anything in the family for the years I knew him. I know it was hard to pull out the money for special occasions to buy something for someone no matter how cheap or stupid the idea was. I would have liked anything he would have pulled out just to say I got something from him.
He was solitary, spoke little unless it was about business or monetary gain, judgmental and most of all closed off his life to people in his family. I wrote a poem as a memorandum to our loss. It was the best I could do, I hope it would reach him where ever he was. I couldn’t understand who he was in the end and what drove him to be who he was at the end of all this. He was an enigma to me even in the end. He was just my kid brother in the end no matter how he treated us and behaved I didn’t care. I just lost a chance and opportunity to redeem my kid brother.. The glimmer of hope that we would resolve the friction and conflict between us as kids in the end.
I hate how he was so calm and collected talking about what he was about to do before he passed away. He was so smug, he really needed that smack on the head. To wake up and realize that it was his life he was talking about and it effected everyone around him also. Everyone who knew him and worried for him would be effected. But even after all that, never visiting me at the hospital while i was there – I guess he was just going through too much stuff and struggling with his own life to reach out to me.
Even after all that, I forgive him. I just hope he gets everything coming to him. Our frustrations, anger and especially our love. I hope that guy finds peace. I wish him well.