Some Fun Doodles. In loving memory of my brother’s hobbies and anime fixation.

 

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My gate is always open. A link to my secret prayers page.

Above is just a fun exploration of 3 dimensional space to keep my mind sharp.

So here’s the story short. I got ill from a psychosis and suffered severely from delusions for a awhile and thus got hospitalized. As soon as I got discharged and got better my brother passed away due to depression.. and more to the story but I’m hushed to keep it low key.

On a lighter note.. we distributed some of his prized belongings. His guitar and PS4 were first to go. I got his cintiq tablet hd 22, some clothes and his lonely room and possessions became mine. I doodled a little today on his monstrous cintiq tablet and decided to honor my brother’s favored Japanese art style Anime and drew some fun characters.

Below are some comic ideas I had in mind that I would like to explore in the future possibly. Alphonse the first, Omegan the end, Ethos the Crosswey, Amberguity of ambiguous virtue.

More to come in the future hopefully.

*edit: added 8 more characters. The Synthesis Core Equator, Terra the Amazon Earth Guardian, Abundance of Heaven’s Grace, Obsidian the Grand Teacher, Lost Worlds the Grand Archivist, The Epiphany Prelude and Spatial Planar Protruding Binary.

 

The Twelve Theories Proxy Character Maps. Pin point Mapping of Character Sphere of influence. Below are character maps and it’s primordial natures and behaviors.

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Intuitive and Analytical Brain. Seven Best Habits for Effective Art Practice.

The Left and Right Hemisphere’s of the brain working together for a resulting iterative moderate solution. Here are some golden rules for studies based on artistic right and analytical math based left.

(The diagram below is facing you and is the reason why it looks backwards.)

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There are two basic sides and approaches to doing good art. The logical Analytical left side of the brain’s way.. and the creative intuitive right side of the brain’s way.

It seems that the two fields influence and behave completely different from one another.

logical rational
analytical left

creative imaginative
intuitive right

Which brings us to an understanding of art to a different level called Iterative drawing.

Iterative drawing relies on perspective, practice and mainly this new thing called mileage.

iterative drawing is based on
mileage and moderation.

(draw multiple versions of the one drawing for effective learning).

There are also components to drawing and painting.

Drawing tends to rely mostly on proportion placement. Form and construction. Perspective and anatomy.

The components to painting rely mostly on;
value, color, temperature and texture.

7 habits of highly effective artists. The seven practices for effective learning artists are as listed;

  1. Do daily work; set a scheduled meeting with yourself.
  2. Work towards perfection by volume.
  3. Great artists steal, take what you love and use it.
  4. Conscious learning; focus on relative things and awareness.
  5. Rest 6 weeks for fresh eyes.
  6. Feedback; everything sucks at the start.
  7. Create what you love.

 

RIP April 10 2017; A Message to A Distanced Brother I Still Forgive

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High expectations, low resolve.

I know I’ve been hard on him all my life and sometimes it was hard to set aside our differences, majority of the time. I believe throughout his life he’s had this conflict of expecting a lot but never settling for less than what he wanted to see happen. His resolve to settle was always less than what he expected to see in life. He was use to being hand fed by a silver spoon, living off the silver lining of life and when things got tough because the stars didn’t align for him he gave up.

We grew up pretty poor growing up and he was a favored child all the years I knew him. I’ll continue to roast him in his passing because that opportunity to do so has passed. He was my young kid brother and he had so much more coming to him. There’s so much frustration and misunderstanding of who we were and what we were in life to each other.

I dreamed he visit once just recently. I was resuscitating him in the dream, and he came to life again. He kissed my forehead and said “Stupid”. A very normal answer based on profound knowledge of who he was. I was tearing up, I wanted to say so much but all I could think of was how selfish he was.. how much of an idiot he was to leave us the way he did. How hard it was for my parents to let him go – no parent should bury their kid.

I always saw him in a heroic light, I sometimes referenced him to the redeemed exiled king of “Lord of The Rings” King Aragorn. I had bought him a Aragorn replica sword for his room in 2010 (?) with all the money I had made working banquets for The Shaw Conference Center.  He in exchange never bought anyone anything in the family for the years I knew him. I know it was hard to pull out the money for special occasions to buy something for someone no matter how cheap or stupid the idea was.  I would have liked anything he would have pulled out just to say I got something from him.

He was solitary, spoke little unless it was about business or monetary gain, judgmental and most of all closed off his life to people in his family. I wrote a poem as a memorandum to our loss. It was the best I could do, I hope it would reach him where ever he was. I couldn’t understand who he was in the end and what drove him to be who he was at the end of all this. He was an enigma to me even in the end. He was just my kid brother in the end no matter how he treated us and behaved I didn’t care. I just lost a chance and opportunity to redeem my kid brother.. The glimmer of hope that we would resolve the friction and conflict between us as kids in the end.

I hate how he was so calm and collected talking about what he was about to do before he passed away. He was so smug, he really needed that smack on the head. To wake up and realize that it was his life he was talking about and it effected everyone around him also. Everyone who knew him and worried for him would be effected. But even after all that, never visiting me at the hospital while i was there – I guess he was just going through too much stuff and struggling with his own life to reach out to me.

Even after all that, I forgive him. I just hope he gets everything coming to him. Our frustrations, anger and especially our love. I hope that guy finds peace. I wish him well.

NN.

Animals, Abstract and Environments

This week I did a mix of animals, abstract and environments that I hope you’ll like. First I did a Golden Eagle. Secondly, I did Golf Greens which hangs in the Alberta Hospital. Thirdly I made a “Desert Oasis” overlooking a lake. Next, I did an abstract picture that represents “Perspectives” of many entities. Finally, I finished the week off with a Polar Bear Guardian.

Please enjoy your stay. Love, Happiness, Justice and Peace.

Nam,

Eagle

Golden Eagle

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Golf Greens

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Desert Oasis

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Perspective

Polarbear

Polar Bear Guardian

We Are a Product of Our Work

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  1. We are a product of our work.

You are what you make of life. In the end it’s what you’ve done, the kindness you’ve spread and the hearts you touched that makes logical sense in life – but most importantly, who you become is immediately significant. Life is about the people you meet, yes this is true, but you are the product of all these interactions that make you grow, being a result and product of all things that have come. All things that influenced you as you figured out and sorted problems after problems to become solutions. Turning dirt, molding it to become gold in your eyes. Making something from nothing. Doing something surprisingly great and beautiful despite all odds and what tools and things you have to work with. This is the philosophy of the lotus being born in a barren dirty place as the swamp and blooming into a beautiful flower out of no where.

All the things we have done, all the work we put in, all the people we interacted with to get where we are today. This is what we have taken for granted. People don’t see the impact of their actions and kindness but as we grow more mature and thoughtful this results in development refining of character. We become more respectful and polite in order to resolve common conflicts that could be dealt with easily with simple decency. If we remember our goals and keep our personal plans for ourselves focused at heart and strive for these resulting projects consistently persevering, we will surely get where we want to go in life and collect all the rewards that we sowed in the end. Keeping in mind that we can’t please everyone but we should still aim to be selfless and generously giving. Not everyone has the human interest in mind.

Despite the fact that not everyone has good intentions, we can only help the few that care and spread acts of kindness and behaviors. Focusing on the here and now, we prioritized our love ones and make preferences to enjoy and allow the joy in our life to flourish. Allowing our love and happiness and our justice and peace to prosper. We have worked our method and analyzed our directions and conflicts and this is what we found in the end. In chronological order these are the conflicts but also profound virtuous solutions I have come to conclude..

 

My Journey’s Stellar Pin-Pointed Gems:

Life: Be Yourself.

Dream: Follow your heart.

Self: Build and learn. One lesson at a time.

Light: Shine in the Dark. When all good is amiss, be the light in the dark.

Redemption of Alphonse: Stand for the Truth.

 

Loyalty: Think of what you can offer by building faith in one another.

Trust: Respect and think of others but be smart but caring.

Authority: Be the invisible hand that gives hope. (Be bold, have courage and be strong).

Wisdom: Find the fine silver lining path (to understand, contemplate and comprehend the truth) To resolve the truth.

Redemption of Omegan: Legitimacy and Credibility.

 

Hope begets Faith. Faith begets Compassion. Compassion begets Love. Loves begets Grace. Grace brings forth the Redemption.

Hope: I sought to practice and I intended to build bridges.

Faith: I sought to understand the world and my wool was covered in soot of taint. I remind myself that there is hope in the end if I have faith.

Compassion: I sought to nurture the world and started giving. I remind myself that with great faith in the end I will have compassion.

Love: I sought to care for the world and started understanding myself, others and the world around me. I remind myself that with compassion in the end I will have love.

Grace: I sought to do good in the world and I started offering my services to God and The Heavens. I remind myself that with love in the end I will arrive with grace.

Redemption of Christwey: I sought to change life for the better and I gave my heart to everyone. I have forsaken the angel in my heart but one day I will be fruitful with my work.

 

Love: I’ve found love, it is in the people.

Peace: I’ve found peace, it is in acceptance of my reality on Earth.

Justice: I’ve found justice. I look to solve love, peace and happiness for the self and others. A person should stand for good on the bold and narrow path.

Happiness: I’ve found happiness,  I found the Truth in myself.

Composure: I’ve found composure, I look at stability and try to balance my life.

Temperance: I’ve found temperance, I seek inside me to find what it is I can offer.

Solution: I’ve found the solution, I believed that there was a way and would plot my points, draw my lines and that would make my paths in life.

The Golden Measure of Perspective

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  1. The Golden Measure of Perspective. Fiction and reality. The distinguished divided look between human beings and being inhuman, being imaginary and being real. Subjective and objective.

Human beings can be seen subjectively and objectively; being seen subjectively reveals the emotional human elements of what they are and when seen objectively they can make the person, place or thing an objective goal such as a product/result of their work. Humans are interesting in that they actually don’t have to make sense of what they are and where they are going. This is true in that, their meaning of life doesn’t have to mean anything at all. It is all just assumed that people have a place and time to get somewhere. The expression of life as a body in this world is just a vessel for experience. Ideally we want to feel happy, fulfilled and find great enjoyment in life.

We talk about being humans and humane all the time but what is it to be the opposite, objectively defining us and as a result making us inhumane? The idea of being inhumane means that we are selfishly goal oriented and we want to pursue dreams. Some times this drives us in a way to fulfill us with profound thoughts and life because life sometimes works into your world subjectively whether you acknowledge it or not. There is no pure experience subjectively and objectively based on the golden means model of balance. One cannot exist without the other even when identified as separate existing entities.

Human beings can be imaginary and a figment of your imagination. The ones that you think about in your head and speak to are separate from who they are in real life. They may have names and different identities but “You are you, I am me”. When something is real, they can affect a person the moment they wake up and realize their reality. A amputation of a leg or arm is a very real reality. People with mental illness have a very real reality also. Life is very real for a victim of mental illness only through the environment, circumstances and conditions they are put through. There is also a stigma that lessens their legitimacy and this hurts their future.

Life must be embraced but a distinct separation of what is real and what is not is very important and must be established. What is imaginary in the real world and what is conjured by the mind. These are the boundaries and lines of the fictional world. Things cannot be without these known boundaries and reality is at stake if divisions of such worlds are not distinguished.

The golden measure of all things should be accounted for in all systems. Life is not without taking into consideration moderation of things such as fiction and legends in a human life. There must be some imperial system and a grand foundation of what we build our worlds around and it should always include ourselves for, by, from, to the people. It is important that life be made with a balance of imaginary and the real. Paradoxes may exist and you may end up a hypocrite of what you sought to be in the end but life isn’t without surprises. Life is what you make out of it, so enjoy life – seek simple kindness, love and compassion.

A Piece of Mind for Nurture

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“Ask and You Will Receive..” these are the simple words that speak a variety of ways – sometimes we are too proud to ask and we don’t want to be put in a seat of vulnerability. We punish ourselves and forget what it means to be humble and to submit to the mercy of those of higher power. By grace of the higher ups they will provide. We just need to learn to keep our words and minds healthy so that the environment stays stable to encourage a nurturing growing world.

6. Best case scenarios of possibilities with alignments to heighten probability of chances. OR (Finding the light and kindling the chances of greatness to happen.)

In life you can observe the world in a healthy optimistic positive direction or a negative pessimistic direction. But there is another way – and that is to see that you can only work with what you have. It is not that the glass is half full or half empty – it’s what you do with what you have that really matters. I believe best case scenarios are typically more appealing than the ideas of worst case scenarios – where realism and realistically we are driven to make something out of nothing. That we can produce golden results out of what little we had to work with.

Best case scenarios are devastatingly fun to look at and very appealing because it is what we ideally want to create and look towards in the future. But worst case scenarios we are often times conflicted. We must be aware of such pessimistic worlds and rather find results that are useful. Being proactive and making precautionary measures are good practices of human intuition and intuition in itself is a tough practice. But if we put a mind over matter methodology into our work, things will progressively get better with time.  I believe having faith, which is an unusual spiritual and abstract thing often helps the mind stay sharp and tempered.

If best case scenarios are what we look out for in life than worst case scenarios we must acknowledge as well but not to be made the focus. I enjoy the wide view of spectrum of perspective of oversight. To see a broad range of things in order to see the good and acknowledge the bad, to find a general lieu of a word called piety. To know good from bad. I embrace the idea that nothing can be purely good or bad but it is in some form of many grays and hints and hues of colors. Just as life is portrayed in a broad spectrum of colors and shades of hints and hues – so are the people, it’s decisions and ideas are also plastered with vibrant colors of emotion, history and experiences.

I would like to be reminded of the precautionary tales I’ve come across – and remember not to become the precautionary tale after trying so hard avoiding it all my life. The idea is that I want to grasp the ideal of perfection to some degree but acknowledge the darkness in the stories that stir up gossip. I don’t want to be the gossip of infamous stories but I want to be a legend of progress and creation. Life is what you make of it, you only live once in actuality despite transcendent information.

Life is about the sacred awe of everything that you come across. The brilliance of how it all comes together, how it’s lifted even how it crumbles. Victory comes for those who seek life generously, honestly and with genuine sincerity of the heart. Do not come seeking great truths with the objective of finding some ultimate truth, approach life with a kindred spirit and healthy appetite of curiosity. And remember to share your heart and dreams with those dearest to you with the short amount of time you have on Earth. But keep your temple a sanctuary because we are all just stewards for the next generation. What we teach our children and neighbors is what they will teach theirs and further generations.