If these memories I have coming back are just from previous versions of me. That would make this life equivalent to me being a clone with my memory wiped. My life has been fabricated to suit this set of conditions and circumstances I’m set under. This life that has set into motion is just an enslavement program to make me feel all this life has actual value. When it’s actually just whatever you make it out to be. Once I have kids and find a mate.. the cycle is complete and I provide for these new mouths and the system has me playing as a puppet. And if this happens I am then integrated through attachments to the system. The routine entropy of seeing my loved ones hurt, wars, famine and injustice; everything wrong with the world is the causation to the problem. And the problem is not the bad that we see in the world, the problem is within us is our nature of delusional ego, selfish desires and objective agendas that cause those things in the first place (rooted to hunger, thirst and desire).

If we just learn to let go of the material things in life, if we work to create a life of function and practice rather than having things, status and selfish desires. Then we can be free finally of half the problems humanity is dealing with. Life isn’t about getting things. It’s about the experience and making a world of experience that is suitable and pleasant for all beings. Equality of all race and colors, gender and other varieties of facets.

I’m only partially who I am right now. I am only a portion of my capacity. I make this trip to find myself, and restore my functionality and I may be able to do something. I will break the system. I will find release from this place. I will have quiet of mind. I will find my way home. I will have a solution.

I will establish this world through the strength of love through healing and show them that life isn’t all it appears to be. I’ll do it alone if I have to but there is more to life than this. The more systems we make, the more rules we make for us to follow the more lifeless we become and the more likely we drone to the beat of this notion we call life. I will not let it have me. I am a free man, I was made to create. I am not a technician. I am a healer, teacher and creator. I’m not doing this out of selfishness, and I am aware your children take care of you as you get older. I’m probably likely not going to grow old and die alone, something is bound to happen. But that’s all fine in itself, there has to be a balance and of course I need to not be completely selfless but do it with moderation and some self control.

I play for the objective. I play to win. I am a free man not obligated to serve any man, machine or god. I fight for humanity and I encourage you to join me to heal the world. I answer to no god. I will submit to no god. Authority has no control over who I am, I am the model of empowerment. I do not trust any god that I do not see with my own eyes, I do not give control to a driver that has not earned my trust. I do not give myself away to a spirit who I must trust by faith. They might as well all be demons. I will demonize your god if I must make my own path. May god strike me down, and justice be set in motion for him if I am not in my right. I give myself only to humanity and the health of the collective. If you decide I am unfit to heal your wounds as this healer may you turn to your imaginary god for healing. And whatever impossible things he may do, may he do it over a dozen times until you see with your eyes that what you worship is untrue.

Heaven and hell has no influence on Earth. We are are a separate entity. God nor the devil whether they are real or not has no influence in this plane of existence. This is just another blackhole of entropy, wasted/unexpressed dreams and vacuum of death and despair. But I will make best of it with light. For there is always light in the dark.