It is only after I write about god, universe and the truth that i realize i have come a full circle. I have been brought back to the core meaning of my blog and that is about love. I have been writing about my thesis about how dream, life and light are directly interconnected but now I fear that thesis that if it were to be true. It may spell the end of my physical life.

I had a dream as I said about my mother and I talking on a boat. I was 28 and she told me when I’m 33 i get married. That’s fantastic news, but then I had a dream about how i was dead and covered in mealworms and creepy crawlies eating my flesh and my sister told me I died before I got married. It got pretty grim. The logic was if I’m 33 when i get married and before I get married I’m going to die that means i only have 5 years to live. Part 2 of the story is a year later, I have a dream that god told me that I had one question, to that I asked “who am i going to marry”. And to that he answered “that is why you will end”. With disappointment in his voice it sounds as if he was warning me of what is going to happen, maybe I don’t have much time left, that maybe he was telling me to keep fighting and don’t think about it too much.

It is ironic, if I am able to prove my thesis it means that there is a danger, if I prove it then i will unfortunately be a victim of my own products. God has a sense of humor and I realize now, I just hope we can all laugh at this joke he’s playing in the end and that there is no real danger. I’m alittle scared but my mind has played tricks on me before so I have not given super natural ideas any credit and grant them the chance to see me in this great time of weakness.

It is after all this that i realize life is about love again. It is in the eye of death that i understand love was the answer to all that is and was. I need to know in my heart that it is love that brought us here and love is what will bring us together and love is what will take us away to experience our dreams. I hope I experience love in this life. I hope i have love and spare love when i need it and people around me need it most. I know love is the answer, all forms of it expressed in different manners simultaneously or separately.

“All we need is love”

-beetles

I hope this was the answer i was looking for. That the general field of love is what i came here to experience. I know god wants me to love him and that he wants me to know i love him too. Sorry for bringing God into a blog about logic and scientific thought. I just want the world to accept that there is a world we don’t understand out there and that we should keep looking despite the odds.

Forever and always love, hope and faith are our passage. Marriage, relationships and simple kindness are our vessels to happiness. Strength, warmth and compassion will be our image.

• hope, faith and love are our passage.
• Marriage, relationships and simple kindness are our vessels to happiness.
• Strength, warmth and compassion will be our image.

Artist for art: Alexandrecabanel