I’ve always felt like I’ve done something significant in time that I cannot understand or comprehend. I have made many choices in my life that was life altering, important decisions I decided I’d rather turn away from and let it disappear. I’m not sure what type of person I am in the future. Though it feels although he is present from time to time. It’s me but not of my time. I feel like everything bad that happened before is all undone and everything good that I did while living that time frame is disappearing. Like it never existed. I don’t understand how living under different conditions and living under different circumstances may change a person so radically enough as to make a person for example an all powerful suit of evil or a masterful genius of some higher level intellect. What level of ethics divide them.. or is it knowledge of what needs to be sacrificed in order to obtain greater power, intellect something that is enough to twist a man from innocent to guilty?
What is the fork or dividing line that lead a man to become what he is in the end. Or will it be a shade of grey a little of both worlds somewhere in the middle? Exploring the Grey spectrum world with aspirations for an ideal world of good is the fork I took. Building, trying hard to not faulter. Dodging bullets of life. Delving into worlds of illusions; video games, books, movies, music.. my own piece of mind. Though the longer I stay in this grey world the more I feel I am drained spiritually.. like the dullness of it all. Don’t talk too loud. Don’t think bad things. Keep your hands to yourself. All the things you teach yourself oppressing your spirit from flying free. I’m in a cage basically with walls of glass separating us. You know that stimulating all our senses is healthy. Edmonton, home of job security, stability, homes and free medical care. It’s a working city, boring but safe. Safe is all i need. Or is it?
On the subject of minorities at the moment trying to get equal rights. Is god’s word hate? or of peace? or do you want to ignore a whole community of people who are asexual, gay, bisexual and transgender? These shades of grey in the human gender spectrum will exist no matter how hard to try to hide them. Religion needs to change in that if it does not stop it’s discrimination towards these minorities that they will cause a world of hate and self destruction for these lives. How are you going to deal with these people? ignore them and force these humans to live their life confused and closed off from other people? This is a major issue, If god is not accepting of these minorities then religion is a tool of hate and separation. The United states is a country working towards a world of tolerance and justice. And the bible is calling it Modern Babylon.. when they accused rome of being Babylon at one point. Where is the scarlet, gold and purple? Where are the kings that are represented by the crown the beast wears? These refrences from the bible are vague and honestly i can’t believe people are studying the bible as a science or history book. It’s a book of faith and faith is what the people of the past needed – we build on futures based on science, general social ethics, politics, economy and services now.
We have taken a book that may save us from eternal damnation and turned into a walk through book that shouldn’t be. The book is not a walk through but encoded and influenced by the spirit of the holy ghost. It is to be interpreted and reflected on, not a step by step guidance through life. This is what your ancestors did and we have grown to know better then to do what religion in the past has done. What happened to peace and love? living in the comfort of a warm home with safe water and safe food. A job and safe passage to and from work. A family to look out for you, a family of your own to raise. This is all possible for anyone. One who looks hard enough in this world will find a way to get it to work even if it isn’t perfect. The words of scriptures have been twisted and misinterpreted because circumstance, conditions and situations the writer and reader have been put in. Catholics and Hollywood media depict Christ as a white man. Christ was black apparently, with bronze skin and hair like sheep’s wool (kinky hair). How is it possible ? — imaginiation for one.. circumstance, condition and situation. This just shows the magnitude of the misconception from the bible today. The name Jesus isn’t even the original christ name, history, people and condition/circumstance/situation changed it. His original name was Yeshua. I think what we made is a whole new person and possibly conjured a religion based on misconception and time twisted ideas.
I’m just saying all we need is love; Tolerance, virtue and understanding to get through these times. It’ll get better! We just gotta push through these bullies and misguided idealists and create a path that works. The world is not perfect and you can only work with what you got.