“I just had a epiphany”.

The material world and everything it stands for is the death of the soul. It stands for selfishness and individualism and “dividedness”  (just how light hits a prism). And reveals what we really are. Cousins, Sisters/Brothers, Neighbors and distant relatives down the path of human history.

Humanity and it’s races is just an illusion. All human life on earth matters.. Not just any color, occupation or what country you reside in. We are all a mixture of something.. looking at a person and determining the ethnicity based on their physical appearance is the wrong philosophy in determining what they really are. At least in the physical realm of things. The best we have is Ancestry.com and genetic testing.

Talking about the wrong path and focus I was making a comment on the state of mind of the Americans right now on #BlackLivesMatter. I wrote this comment below. And it fits nicely with how the world is not aligned in mentality yet in the world.

“What happens when black lives matter is achieved? You can’t use black lives matter as a vehicle forever.. All the lives matter despite it’s history of being a response to black lives matter. Doesn’t matter. All Lives Matters is a focus vehicle of balancing that all lives matter. “white” Lives Matter would be the spectrum opposite and “Insert color” Lives matter would be just as important as black lives matter. You are prioritizing that black lives matter over all else.. which should not be the approach. This is a dividing trivial debate, I agree to the anthem change in philosophy. All Lives do matter.. You should try changing your perspective. You can’t force the world to change theirs.”

Mapping life through paradigms and charts, Creating guidelines and rules to practices within the human experience perspective and finding an Application for Philosophy

I’ve been trying to map the universe using paradigms and charts slapping together words that represent something and using metaphors to define them. Abstractly and Concretely defining things color coordinating them and articulating them best I could, arguing that there is a relationship between color and words in the dictionary in life. That was the project.

I have been scrambling to put together guidelines and rules for what I believe was the best approach and path to approaching the human experience. Reasons why and how to do this describes the process in getting to an application of philosophy.

The application of philosophy is maybe finding a direct route and aligning a common ground with the ideas of a certain path and tree in life. Learning about Knowledge and it’s gateway is the application of philosophy. Synthesizing to become one and then moving as a vehicle towards an ascendancy. Working towards the now of the situation.

As of right now, the project is physical taking a toll on my living body. I think the mental stress of assessing all these ideas are starting to weigh on me. I’ve been starting to get these blisters on my hands from what I read it’s from excessive stress.. Even though this is all I’ve been doing. I guess you come to understand that the strain is real when your physical body starts to act up because of thinking too much.

I also had a dream about a life I never had. And I communicated with Yahweh.. angry as usual but what he said concerned me. He said I was selfish and I think I know why. It was about this life I never had about my wife and child in a time line that has not existed yet. I went to alternative universe psychic readings one day.. and I asked for a reading. I change my career path and direction completely that day, making me ask what happens to that life I would have lived had I gone that direction. The woman told me that I would be unhappy with my current direction but what about the child and romantic relationships I have with the people of that universe? That universe is wiped out. I felt i was visited by them last night when I was sleeping.. a warm body embraced me from behind and a little girl who I didn’t realize could have been my future child. Yahweh called me selfish for doing this, maybe because he felt an attachment to this child, I didn’t know these people – at least not yet so I couldn’t relate. I guess that’s something sad thing about being omniscient, you get to see all the failed realities.

Christ was making jokes, I couldn’t remember the joke otherwise I would’ve quoted it for the bible people. But he was “light-hearted” and kinder — more understanding of my condition and circumstance. These stories left me very heavy this morning it was a burden of ideas that came to me in a flood that made me realize I might’ve lost it all to pursue selfish personal goals on Earth. I don’t care to be rich, but riches in this world means freedom and opportunities for life. Money is a currency for freedom in life.. and I want to have the freedom to help others – freely. I would want to design systems, strategies and ideas for what the world should embody, practice and apply.

Also I apologize for focus on self again, I can’t help but work in first person. I forget that telling “you” to do things in second person and including us as a collective is a better practice. There are many ways to express myself but the medium of the Now is best represented in the “I” perspective. It’s a great strain to reach such ideal standards but I’ll try is all i can do. Anyways, just remember this the human experience of life and it’s material illusion, it’s science of physically being “real” of narcissism is the death of the human spirit. We are humans and should get our priorities and preferences in check.

Humility, Curiosity and Prosperity,

Nam