The Fear of Death Web

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Fear of Death Web

The center of Fear is in the Amygdala. There are 9 major fear triggers for death.

  1. Falling
  2. Incapacitation
  3. Disease
  4. The unknown/abnormal
  5. Sudden movement (jump scare)
  6. Isolation
  7. Pain
  8. Suffocation
  9. Increased CO2 in blood

The link of Trauma in dreams through lack of oxygen can lead to serious sickness of the mind. It is possible that trauma and ptsd (post traumatic syndrome disorder) can lead to psychosis and even schizophrenia. Psychosis can be induced by psychedelics and drugs such as marijuana or exposure to intense lucid dreams, trauma in conjunction with a psychedelics may bring about a psychotic outbreak.

We use to fix everything with glue but..

No matter how much money and glue you throw at certain problems – you can’t fix how broken some people truly are.

They moved from glue and money to scotch tape and hammer.. they try different things but things were never ever the same on the inside.

This fact changed nothing and it continued to be so.

You can’t change a person. You just accept them for who they are and move on. You either move forward with an ideal or accept the truth and work with that.

The weak are docile to dogma, real people think outside the box for true solutions. The world is not perfect and sometimes you need to break free and see past the social norms to improve.

My brother came back to visit. He opened the “paku-paku” book. I got pulled in by a great vacuum. It released all the local spirits. I asked if I ever came back to visit. I ate a giant other worldly pastry; we had a grand banquet with the ghost relatives. The saving grace of losing your mind is in the imagination of such dreams.

The jailer holds you, dictates your fate, controls you in the practice of just living and growth in life. Save me from myself. The chalice of life is built on the structure that you are responsible for your own actions. The right of way has been written, see through the delusions and take hold of your own life.

Lost in my thoughts, forgetting who I am. I don’t even recognize who I was before all this. All is in a sleepy daze and constant feeling of tiredness looms. Is my legitimacy questionable? If I question myself then who is left to stand for who I am? Forgive me for my incompetence and bad choices. I have forgotten who I am and what I stood for. The excitement for learning and improving is lost. I look back and remember the days of growth and seeking truth. You can not satisfy ideals and you can never find perfect truths. There are many and numerous perspectives in life and you can only partially grasp the truth to a degree.

Starry Time is on a Cloud

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Heart of gold, head of an ox.

Infinite is a big number. Forever is a long time.

This moment should really be seen as a new beginning not the end.

Let it be full of possibilities and gratitude.

Slow and steady wins the race.

Love not for the sake of love.

Live by reason to allow joy a chance to take it’s roots and flourish.

Let fate be what one chooses it to be.

Let Karma be a system built on kindness and credit rather than a system of opposite reaction and consequence.

 

The nature of light is to Copy, Clone and Create.

The nature of dark is Death, Decay and Destruction.

Beyond the scope of Light. And beyond reach of Dark.

 

Be released from the eternal cycle. Break free from the trivial cycle of light and dark.

Accept the dark and claim the light.  Released, no longer a part of the life and death cycle of the system

 

Adventure, balance of nature and growing up

 

Growth is reflected in the clear water’s surface.

A melody that will draw you into infinite darkness.

The flow of time is always cruel.

The world is consumed by greed.

The forest of retained youth.

Lost memories of past deeds.

A childish mind will turn to noble ambition.

Memory of younger days.

 

The Dark, The Light and The Better Medium

The Dark, The Light and The Better Medium. My original book was based on the idea of how there was light in selfless and unconditional love, it was an idea that stayed true to it’s essence as an innocent inquiry blog book into the crazy world of life, dream, light and knowledge. This soon brought me to the idea of darkness that would be reflected seeing this light. The darkness that brood which became the selfish and conditional love which I came to dwell on specifying what love I should aim for, often putting love on a pedestal and gradually fed into the inability to clench the insatiable world of pure virtually generated fantasy. I soon later stumbled on the untold end dynamics and detailed recount which became the product here. The Better Medium was arrived by coming to the epiphany that is self-worth, maximizing of priority and preferences. 

I also looked at selfish and unconditional love and finally the 5th selfless and conditional love; these two other worlds were decaying copycats which did not do much but to help map out the field and since the light and dark seemed to be the most liberating to understand.

I indulged in a “Netflix” binge one day and came across a very relevant and curious movie called “The Thirteenth Floor”. Which played on the premise of the world is a virtual world, and in it existed the only other world in the multiverse with a virtual world inside of another virtual world. It allowed the person to jack into a world to do their vices knowing this world was virtual but at the cost the person in the virtual world who was a very real functioning person with a life of his own, would lose a couple of hours and no memory of what he has done in that world during the time of his occupancy in the “skin suit”. They knew very well that the people in that virtual world had a very real existence and their relationships and life were not something to mess around with. Life ensued and finally the bar tender a close friend of the genius architect of this artificial world received a letter he was not suppose to read and found our about the virtual world and how he was not real. That nothing in his reality was real, they were just code and there were limitations to their artificial world. The man was able to jack out of the virtual world into the “upper” world where he would get a glimpse of the real world the world of tomorrow as they call it behind glass walls and picket fences.

From there I brought myself to a higher understanding to comprehend the place I call the “Crossway” of this existence. “Crossway” is the golden means of life where life can ideally thrive. Such is the distance of the Sun to the Earth and the Moon (it’s tide cycles) is to the Earth to make life habitable, not to forget Jupiter and it’s massive gravity to direct the meteors/space debris from hitting Earth.

So as my light is selfless unconditional love, my dark became selfish conditional love. I learned that the Better Medium was arrived by coming to the epiphany that is self-worth, maximizing of priority and preferences. 

These are the renditions of what my Dark, Light and Better Medium came to be. These were personally rendered on Adobe Photoshop to get a dynamic of the flow and energy found in traditional Yin-Yang. The bleeding and outer rings of these two graphics came out naturally to show the nature of transferred energy red to blue, black and white. This last render (The 2nd) is a 12 or 13th level dynamic graphic. Dynamic in that it was created in a procedural and gradual edits using vectors and pin point accurate rotations of vector programming. Meaning, You cannot merely replicate these graphics unless you proceed in a certain step by step generation of these graphics. Nothing is actually wrong with these two graphics they are in perfect harmony. Any mismatch or slight overlay nudges happened naturally during the erecting process.

In my recent dreams, I do not understand if it’s just my mind running like a loose tap but I am starting to see a fluidness of evolving  micro to macro worlds as I am lucid dreaming. They call it an awakening but it feels like I’ve touched the edge of what would be deemed sanity at this point. I feel and understand now what it is like to be normal and sane with a small touch of crazy some times but it’s good to know your limits as I’m sure no one “great” has ever thought inside the box for out of the box answers. The more dreams I have, the more vivid the detail, depth and colors seem to become a touch of synesthesia perhaps. Though it seems more like a jumble of mess degrading or evolving mass despite that fact there is a pattern of looking deeper into the worlds within itself.

 

-Nam

Gene Keys Notes 31-37; Part 3

Continuation of.. Gene Keys Notes Part 1 (keys 1-20)

and Gene Keys Part 2 (keys 20-30)

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31st Gene Key

Siddhi Humility, Gift Leadership and Shadow Arrogance.

32nd Gene Key

Siddhi Veneration, Gift Preservation and Shadow Failure

Grafting a new branch of life.

33rd Gene Key

Siddhi Revelation, Gift Mindfulness and Shadow Forgetting.

Through mindfulness is where you discover how to purify your nature and no longer create negative karma.

You have found the secret of all human desire – once purified into natural state of Divine longing, it becomes the very fuel that returns you to your true centre of being.

Siddhi fruit, gift flower and seed is shadow.

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34th Gene Key

Siddhi Majesty, Gift Strength and Shadow Force.

Tireless energy and strength deep inside.

Heart of gold, head of a bull.

The ability to act in harmony with natural forces is the true definition of strength.

Become effortless flow of fluid activity and fluid efficiency. Like unto the properties of water.

All heroes are often never found to act on purpose but actually accidental and unintentionally based on their commitment to doing the right thing.

“Display” plays an important part and assists but not to be confused with the siddhi of valor (21).

Valor is aware of itself and seeks glorification whereas Display of heroism appears to be unintentional.

True heroism is unaware of itself.

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35th Gene Key

Siddhi Boundlessness, Gift Adventure and Shadow Hunger.

Selfless unconditional universal love and pursuit of adventure with absence of fear or failure.

Start of something fresh and new.

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36th Gene Key

Siddhi Compassion, Gift Humanity and Shadow Turbulence.

Dark night of the soul

When struggles with sexuality and emotional turbulence is finally embraced openly and honestly something is born.. You graduate as a human being.

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37th Gene Key

Siddhi Tenderness, Gift Equality and Shadow Weakness.

37 is number of Christ in the Gematria.

Over processed emotions and fail as a victim due to emotion states and fears.

Nor patriarchy or matriarchy but as a family.

Surrendering to the overwhelming power.

Sacrificial lamb.

As a mother cradles a child beyond our current view, It is tenderness of a maternal hand.

Tenderness is devoid of tension and sexuality.

No longer tribal structure but will be addressed as a collective mind.

Empowering and support communities simultaneously.

Grace comes to those who need it most (22), Compassion (36) and Truth (63).

40th siddhi of Divine Will’s; softness insurmountable, invincible and inevitable.

Ein Sof Tree of Life 30×48 Painting

I spent the afternoon buying a huge 30×48 canvas, taking the bus and carrying it home. It was quite awkward carrying so much stuff home today. I put into the day a day’s work of painting. I call this Ein Sof Tree of Life, The tree is suppose to be made of stars and the Tree is suppose to represent ever knowledge and ever experience. History and information of all things found in time, as divine memory tells that all things are recorded and remembered in the frame of life. No rock unturned- no action forgotten. In life every deed and every notion of expression is remembered. Our karma and work pays off in the end. Please enjoy my tree to your viewing pleasure.

Nam,

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64 Gene Keys Notes; Siddhi, Gift and Shadows

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I’ve been reading this book based on website https://genekeys.com/. It’s been a inspiring and an enjoyable ride that delves into the world of Genekeys. They speak of 64 gene keys representing the growth in steps from the ever expanding and limitless microcosm to the macrocosm of the world; allowing you to drink/breath deep of it’s colorful and transcendent vibes. If you want to follow me the book it is only 11 dollars CDN for a digital kindle version. link is here https://teachings.genekeys.com/book/ . If you are into the growing, adapting and evolution trend of understand life and world better, I highly recommend this book – the world perspectives is spoken of in great depths.

Siddhi is the complete understanding and enlightenment possessed by a siddha.

“Gift” is the ability, contemplation or understanding that has been grown, harvested and picked to be truly edible to a person’s palatable consumption by means to say that this fruit is harvested ripe for the picking, so that it may be enjoyed and let there be known a certain wisdom.

“Shadow” is the complication or problems due to human objectives on the path of learning  that must be resolved in order to carry on and forward to the next Gene Key step.

Each Siddhi, Gift and Shadow reveals a path and paradigm that expesses a lesson to be learnt per Gene Key.


1st Gene Key

Siddhi Beauty, Gift Freshness, Shadow Entropy

2nd Gene Key

Siddhi Unity, Gift Orientation, Shadow Dislocation

3rd Gene Key

Siddhi Innocence, Gift Innovation, Shadow Chaos

4th Gene Key

Siddhi Forgiveness, Gift Understanding, Shadow Intolerance

5th Gene Key

Siddhi Timelessness, Gift Patience, Shadow Impatience

6th Gene Key

Siddhi Peace, Gift Diplomacy, Shadow Conflict

7th Gene Key

Siddhi Virtue, Gift Guidance, Shadow Division

8th Gene Key

Siddhi Exquisiteness, Gift Style, Shadow Mediocrity

9th Gene Key

Siddhi Invincibility, Gift Determination, Shadow Inertia.

10th Gene Key

Siddhi Being, Gift Naturalness and Shadow Self-Obsession

Wounded from the outset (25), battle with shadows (38), overcome limitations of your mind (17), surrender your need to control life (21) and find your true self (10), before you can awaken (51).

11th Gene Key

Siddhi Light, Gift Idealism and Shadow Obscurity

An android in a dark room behind bars. A dark skinned man with a knife.

Educated and the creation of a loving environment changes them.

Woman becomes governor and thus begins her journey as a bounty hunter, a maverick of light.

Man becomes protector and iron clad angel to aid the light’s cause.

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12th Gene Key

Siddhi Purity, Gift of Discrimination and Shadow Vanity.

12th, 56th and 33rd are terminator codons.

Vanity is the last thing learnt and let go. Self love expressed but also as love for others.

Ring of secrets**

There is no evil, only progressive sense of density

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13th Gene Key

Siddhi Empathy, Gift Discernment and Shadow Discord

Theme of listening.

7th divison = future 13th discord past

30th gene shadow of desire conflict.

Also known as the “fellowship of man”.

Empathy is the truest organ but only with collective existence.

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14th Gene Key

Siddhi Bounteousness, Gift Competence and Shadow Compromise.

Work = effort

Competitance carries within it efficiency, enthusiasm, flair and flexibility.

15th Gene Key

Siddhi Florescence, Gift Magnetism and Shadow Dullness.

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Core medium equator

16th Gene Key

Siddhi Mastery, Gift Versatility and Shadow Indifference

17th Gene Key

Siddhi Omniscience, Gift Far-sightedness and Shadow Opinion

Opinion based on logical judgement

Not about having a great holistic vision of reality that takes no sides and is beyond opinion.

18th Gene Key

Siddhi Perfection, Gift Integrity and Shadow Judgement.

19th Gene Key

Siddhi Sacrifice, Git Sensitivity and Co-dependence.

9 portals of planetary initiation

  1. Birth
  2. Baptism
  3. Confirmation
  4. Matrimony
  5. Annunciation
  6. Communication
  7. Ordination
  8. 8.Sanctification
  9. Glorification

20th Gene Key

Siddhi Presence, Gift Self-assurance and Shadow Superficiality.

Model altruism while remaining detached.

Encouraging invention, innovation and simplicity.

Breath of god, or word of god.

Seven sacred bodies of humanity:

  1. Physical
  2. Astral
  3. Mental
  4. Causal
  5. Buddhic
  6. Atmic
  7. Monadic
  8. Logoic

 

 

21st Gene Key

Siddhi Valour, Gift Authority and Shadow Control

31st voice, 7th heart and 21st will of group.

Kinship over kingship.

Valorous age of chivalry

Surrender of control for trust

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22nd Gene Key

Siddhi Grace, Gift Graciousness and Shadow of Dishonor

The importance of acceptance rather than changing an experience let it flow.

Divine intervention, Truth of redemption.

Law of divine memory states that every feeling mood and thought you have is put there directly by god for you to trust in it and is recorded in memory of space.

The three pure ones.

Hermes Trismegisting (thrice great) aka merlin, thoth and Fu His.

Through the practice of Alchemy and High Magic. Alchemy concerning the transmutation of suffering through alignment with Divine Will. The second great teacher is Christ the transmutation of suffering through love and sacrifice. Finally the third great teacher is the Buddha whos fractal represents the transmutation of suffering through wisdom and compassion.

This makes up the Gene Keys revelation synthesis of the great trinity of Divine Will, Love and Wisdom.

Hermes the Magi the teachings of Alchemy and Transmutation.

Buddha brought the teachings of Karma and Rebirth.

Christ brought the teachings of forgiveness and atonement

The seven Sacred Bodies of Humanity:

  1. Physical
  2. Astral
  3. Mental
  4. Causal
  5. Buddhic
  6. Atmmic
  7. Monadic

 

  1. Physical bedrock of incarnation. Collective memory of humanity is stored in our dna.
  2. The Astral Body is human aura and emotion/desire. Pleasure and Pain reflected at vibrational frequencies which effectively divide the astral plane into hell realms and heaven realms. Has great influence over your physical health.
  3. The Mental Body exists at higher frequency than your emotions and is constructed from your thinking of life. Mental body is influenced by the collective mental body of all of humanity. Feelings of unfulfillment often pull us down into low vibrational shadow energy levels.
  4. Causal body stores the goodwill of the human soul. It becomes a storage hub for high frequency thoughts. Words and Deeds that we have initiated during our many journeys in incarnation.
  5. The Buddhic Body – above the astral body. Reveals the truth that humanity and all the earth planes are in fact one single organism. The causal body dissolves after this and reincarnation in the normal sense is no longer necessary. The third feminine realm of the holy trinity called Divine Activity.
  6. The Atmic Body allows higher evolutions outside the process of physical incarnation. While buddhic body keeps it’s connection with humanity through compassion, The atmic body brings awareness into the cosmic field of Christ consciousness directly merging your awareness with Divine Mind and Heart. It is through the atmic body that the great avatar streams enter the world. It is also the realm of the Siddhis – the many miraculous manifestations of the Divine.
  7. Monadic Body is the unbridled primal essence of Divine consciousness itself. Operates at the causal plane which is the veil it takes on in order to enter the lower worlds corresponding to the first aspect of the Holy Trinity Divine Will.

Divine Will, Mind and Heart and Divine Activity make up The Divine Holy Trinity.

Emotions in the bardos after death are experienced more intensely.

As there is no defined linear sense of time in the bardo states, it can seem that hell is eternal just as it can seem that heaven is eternal.

The six core wounds of humanity,

  1. Repression
  2. Denial
  3. Shame
  4. Rejection
  5. Guilt
  6. Separation.

 

The seven sacred seals and their respective Siddhis

The First Seal – Divine Will (40th Siddhi)

The Second Seal – Ominiscience (17th Siddhi)

The Third Seal – Universal Love (25th Siddhi)

The Fourth Seal – Epiphany (43rd Siddhi)

The Fifth Seal – Forgiveness (4th Siddhi)

The Sixth Seal – Truth (63rd Siddhi)

The Seventh Seal – Grace (22nd Siddhi)

The Seal that Heals:

  1. Divine Will (40th Siddhi) heals human repression. Ends disease.
  2. Omniscience (17th Siddhi) heals wound of denial. Ends violence.
  3. Universal Love (25th Siddhi) heals wound of shame. Ends greed.
  4. Epiphany (43rd Siddhi) heals the wound of rejection. Ends poverty.
  5. Forgiveness (4th Siddhi) heals the patterns of unconscious guilt. Ends war
  6. Truth (63rd Siddhi) heals the wound of separation. Ends indifference.
  7. Grace (22nd Siddhi) transfiguration (47th Siddhi) absorption of previous 6 layers of human aura into the monadic body, the primordial essence. All surrender to Atmic body called the 7th The opening of the Seventh Seal is the final human epoch and the return of the human race to it’s original Edenic state. The redemption of all beings.

The Nine Portals of Planetary Initiation:

  1. Birth
  2. Baptism
  3. Confirmation
  4. Matrimony
  5. Annunciation
  6. Communion
  7. Ordination
  8. Sanctification
  9. Glorification

 

Greater pleasure is derived from giving than from taking – foundation for higher life.

In the spirit of helpfulness and harmlessness of actions.

The mission is to leave the world a better place for future generations.

Grace has numerous more blessings attached under the defined word.

One who is touched by grace will always be touched by grace.

Paintings with a flare of Electronic Art

It’s starting to be difficult to describe the art and things that are running through my head right now.. therefore I have started painting and rendering pictures to describe my experience in life. Just snippets and snapshots of ideas and things I see and have come to terms with and have resolved. Animethon is coming up and I’ll be selling my deceased brother’s work and maybe some of mine also. I’ll be selling them with my cousin Cin who came to me willing to help.

Below are four additional photo touched images of my art that is infused with textures and colors of my current works to produce these mini collages. Hopefully I can make more prints in the future. As for now please enjoy the below produced favorite collage portraits.

I’m trying to display as much stuff as I can but because there’s a disclosure for the work I’m doing I cannot display all the things I’m doing with my Karate Class and Print Shop job. I’m just hopping about from creative mind set to my practical catered renderings advertising for local companies mind. Things are going well. I hope the art inspires you today. Thank you.

-Nam

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Under-cove of Secrets

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Wolf Shores

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River-lands Eye Candy

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Sky-bound Justice

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Cosmic Infinity

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Tree of Knowledge

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Cosmic Lion